Big Day

Today is my daughter's sixth birthday.

The miracle is not that she survived. The miracle is that I survived...no heart attacks, no strokes...there is still time.

She's a precious, bright and beautiful young girl!

And she has the best and worst of both me and my wife, it's scary!

Sometimes...

...you have moments where, despite certain realities, you feel that you are alone in the world, without a net, without any force to guide you, with nothing but your own moral compass, and nothing but your own intution and your own self-reliance to guide you.

it is at times the worst feeling in the world, because you feel like you are being sucked into a black hole...

and it is at times the best feeling in the world, because are you confident that you can overcome, without anyone else to help you.

today, for this american primitive, this is one of those moments.

i try not to wallow in it...instead i glory in, i revel in it, i thrive in it.

i am alone...naked and free, relying on no one...and i am content.